Spent

by Marcie Bullock

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"Spent" is a concept album, consisting of 9 original songs spanning the genres of soul/funk, rock 'n roll, jazz, and blues. Based on the stages of a relationship, it outlines the emotions and experiences that come along with the newness, the downfall, and the aftermath of falling in love. The mixture of genres of music appropriately fits the mood of each song. "Who Knew" and "When I'm With You" carry the fun, funky/upbeat soul sound to go along with the newness and happiness of a budding relationship. The hard-rock driven melodies and lyrics of "Maybe Just Crazy," "Left Unsaid," and "Damaged" depict the hurt, the anger, and the frustration of the not knowing and the break-up itself. "Can't Undo," "Try," and "Little Did You Know" envelope the longing and the sadness from the loss and heartache. "The Business" is a track depicting the artist's opinion on just what it says, the business.

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released September 24, 2008

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Track Name: Who Knew
Well, whatcha think about that boy - does it blow your mind? It should be a crime to do the things we do. And all the while, revolving turnstile. I'm on a roller coaster ride. I took a leap, I took a dive and wound up here.

Who knew what would unfold? What stories would be told? Years from now they'll still be talkin' while we're doin' what we do. Who knew what we could be, never thought a thing 'bout you and me. But now you're here, won't ya come on through 'cause all this time I've been waiting for you. Who knew?

When I would think I had it all together you blew through like the calm in stormy weather. And when I feel I'm taking on the world and there's no place to hide, I know you're here right by my side and I feel all right.

Who knew what would unfold? What stories would be told? Years from now they'll still be talkin' while we're doin' what we do. Who knew what we could be, never thought a thing 'bout you and me. But now you're here, won't ya come on through 'cause all this time I've been waiting for you. Who knew?

Though there are struggles, though there's been pain, it's all forgotten when I hear you say my name. And I know at the end of the day when I see your face my life is whole, I lose control, and I just want to love you.
Track Name: Can't Undo
Those words you said still ring in my head painting pictures of yesterday, outlining tomorrow. The look you gave cut me to the core and I wonder why you don't want me anymore.

'Cause all I gave you was everything I ever had. And what you returned to me was nothing but bad. If you could see all you've done to me, and now you're oh so sorry. Oh how I wish that you knew there are some things that you just can't undo.

Some time has passed and here you are at my door knowing how I feel, knowing I want more. When the lights go out and the day it is done I still lie awake wondering what's to come.

'Cause all I gave you was everything I ever had. And what you returned to me was nothing but bad. If you could see all you've done to me, and now you're oh so sorry. Oh how I wish that you knew there are some things that you just can't undo.

If things would be different, if I believed your sincerity then this would be easier and I'd have some clarity. But nothing is easy. Man, love sure is the worst. I feed on it's everything and you quench my thirst.

'Cause all I gave you was everything I ever had. And what you returned to me was nothing but bad. If you could see all you've done to me, and now you're oh so sorry. Oh how I wish that you knew there are some things that you just can't undo.

I tell you that loving you is something I just can't undo.
Track Name: When I'm With You
What's it gonna take for you to see that it's you and me all the way. From here on out, no more talk, no more games and no more doubt. 'Cause I realize it all comes down to one thing, all comes down to one thing.

That's how I feel, and how you feel. Nobody else matters, no words can tear us down (There's no one can stand in our way). In a crowded room there's nobody around when I'm with you.

When I look into your eyes I'm hypnotized and I can hardly breathe. I can't believe that all this time has gone by and here we are again. 'Cause I realize it all comes down to one thing, all comes down to one thing.

That's how I feel, and how you feel. Nobody else matters, no words can tear us down (There's no one can stand in our way). In a crowded room there's nobody around when I'm with you.

When the lights are out and all is said and done the world will keep on spinning, all the songs will have been sung. People keep on talking but when I'm lying here with you I'm immune and I'm so in tune.

With how I feel, and how you feel. Nobody else matters, no words can tear us down (There's no one can stand in our way). In a crowded room there's nobody around when I'm with you.

In a room full of people, look at all of 'em staring. They keep talkin', they think they have something to say but I can't hear them, and I can't see them, they can't get in the way.
Track Name: Maybe Just Crazy
Everyone makes mistakes, more than they care to admit. Some with faces, some names, some we try to forget. But then there are those from which you just can't escape. The kind that constantly haunt, but you can't help to embrace.

I wish I could run but I'm just not that fast. You snuck up on me and now I'm crazy in love, or maybe just crazy. I don't know what to do. I can't get over you.

You made it clear that you're simply a mess. You can't decide and you still can't confess. Do you want me to stay or do you want to go? I can't tell either way and you won't let me know for sure.

I wish I could run but I'm just not that fast. You snuck up on me and now I'm crazy in love, or maybe just crazy. I don't know what to do. I can't get over you.

Leave it alone. Give it a day. I should have known that you'd lead me astray. I was wandering alone 'til you came along with words of forever and how we belong together.

I wish I could run but I'm just not that fast. You snuck up on me and now I'm crazy in love, or maybe just crazy and I can't let go. I wish I could run but I'm just not that fast. You snuck up on me and now I'm crazy in love, or maybe just crazy. I don't know what to do. I can't get over you.
Track Name: Left Unsaid
I can't escape these thoughts. I prisoner of my own mind with no parole. I have no control. No matter night or day you always invade everything I do like an addiction I can't shake a disease with no cure. I'm sure, I've tried in every way. You're my needle, you're my blow. You're everything I know. The angel and the devil on my shoulder, in my heart.

This can't be healthy, it makes me feel insane. Funny how things change when you least expect them to. It's really not that bad, you weren't the best I ever had. I'll find a way to let go, just so you know.

Do you know what it's like to close your eyes and see my face? I think you forgot 'cause your love was for not and you had somebody waiting to take my place.

This can't be healthy, it makes me feel insane. Funny how things change when you least expect them to. It's really not that bad, you weren't the best I ever had. I'll find a way to let go, just so you know.

Tell me - was the last time good for you? When you did it though you knew you'd say goodbye? Just like you'd done so many times in your mind, but not to me. I didn't want to see the truth. The real you.

This can't be healthy, it makes me feel insane. Funny how things change when you least expect them to. It's really not that bad, you weren't the best I ever had. I'll find a way to let go, just so you know.

These are the things I could not say to you about everything you put me through. You are not the man I knew. I'm better without you.
Track Name: Try
Two years of feeling in ten minutes gone. Anticipation, frustration, possible elation. In every way possible we did what we could to be close, to be together, to just make it and make it good. And to give up so easily after "it's meant to be" is beyond my comprehension and I just can't understand.

How do you get by? How do you pull through? How do you face the loss of everything you knew? Is it wrong to keep believing that somehow you'll be all right? How do you say goodbye? You just try.

One battle doesn't lose the war if the cause is worth fighting for. If love is the ultimate prize anything would I sacrifice. You were everything I needed and you said I was the same. I guess it's easier to turn away than to take or place the blame. And to give up so easily after "it's meant to be" is beyond my comprehension and I just can't understand.

How do you get by? How do you pull through? How do you face the loss of everything you knew? Is it wrong to keep believing that somehow you'll be all right? How do you say goodbye? You just try.

You said you'd never leave, but sure enough you did. And whether your mistakes or mine it seems you won't forgive.

How do you get by? How do you pull through? How do you face the loss of everything you knew? Is it wrong to keep believing that somehow you'll be all right? How do you say goodbye? You just try.
Track Name: Little Did You Know
Here I am before you though I can't look you in the eyes. You know that I adore you, but boy, I need the truth from behind the lies. Don't you tell me things you'll never mean to fill the space in-between. You may think it's what I need, but I'd rather be broken than cause to bleed.

You said forever. You really meant tonight. You were my lover. But, little did you know you were also my life.

They say when things go sour that it's natural to wonder was it me, or was it you? A combination of the two? I try to find the answer to the cause of our goodbye. Still a reason I can't pinpoint 'cause our love couldn't be denied.

You said forever. You really meant tonight. You were my lover. But, little did you know you were also my life.

I daily drown in a sea of memory, held down by bliss and misery at the thought of what used to be and the love that pulled us through. I can't carve you out of this heart. I can't just up and walk away. Sometimes leaving would be easier, but I can't help but want to stay.

You said forever. You really meant tonight. You were my lover. But, little did you know you were also my life.
Track Name: Damaged
You can call me a bitch, you can call me a saint. You said I was perfect but that went away. Well, take me or leave me. I am who I am. You think I ruined us, but trust me, you lent a hand.

Now I'm damaged. I don't think I can manage anything, everything. I have never been so betrayed, so used, mistreated, abused by one who says they loved. That's one thing you can't recover from.

We go through the motions, always rockin' the notion that a chance still stands, but it all depends. Can you live up to what you said? Or was it wasted breath?

You left me damaged. I don't think I can manage anything, everything. I have never been so betrayed, so used, mistreated, abused by one who says they loved. That's one thing you can't recover from.

So, here's to recovery 101 that I write to you with the words of this song. I know you'll pay attention, or entertain an honorable mention. In your mind try to unwind your feelings of me - the confusion, the love, the animosity.

Damaged. I don't think I can manage anything, everything. I have never been so betrayed, so used, mistreated, abused by one who says they loved. That's one thing you can't recover from.

I can't recover from you. You were all that I knew. Now that we're through I can't feel, and I can't function. I can't heal. I can't cope with not knowing.
Track Name: The Business
Nothing is promised. This I know 'cause promises won't keep. And everything happens, though you say not for a reason. You know that it's all about the glitz, glamour, and fame. If you don't, you better learn quick how to play the game 'cause there will always be someone waiting in line to take your place.

They all say that you've got to be prettier, thinner. Don't you know that I'm doing the best I can? They would serve you up for dinner and spit you out just as fast as they took you in. And you know that no one is perfect. You can say anything you want to about me. Try and tear me down, but through my flaws I embody beauty.

It's your face not your name for the place that you claim in this business. Give yourself to be versatile. It's nothing personal, just business.

Look at me, I don't fit the image. Can't you see that someone's been needing to break the mold. And the whole world is watching and waiting for the next soul to be sold.